*why is it so*

this is how i feel.

why must i go through all these?

just have to hold everything inside me.

though its tough but i am used to it.

tired.

i will be fine later, but not now.

i miss you bubu.

disappointed

when mum is sending me to work, suddenly she told me about the curious case of eli wong. i was not aware of news nowadays as i am lazy after going back home to read the newspapers.

i guess i dont have to inform people who she is (i guess i am the latest to know). i just finished reading all the news from the star. sad right? people are getting stupider nowadays. sigh. this post might be a little offensive and if you are offended half way reading it, leave this page.

people can actually do anything just to achieve what they wants. include bombing someone into pieces and continue sleeping like a pig. in this case, she is a real victim. ok, maybe in my own opinion, and also many people's. dont you think so? some YB said it is possible that she is behind this incident. hello? have you fried your brain recently? who is so stupid to let someone take her own partially nude photos, let the whole world sees it and make herself step down from her posts? this is insane.

people said she is stupid enough to not wear her clothes when she sleeps. for god sake, who the hell are you to judge someone whether she is naked or not in her own room? she got her right ok! what if someone took pictures of you being naked or doing something embarrassing in your own house? will you say the same thing to yourself? its our privacy you are saying! i am not talking about those morons who are willing to post their naked photos just to get some perverts' attention. these people are ridiculous.

many people no matter from the politics, or the public are supporting her. i personally support her actually. i am not to any side, fyi. she is a lady. why on earth do someone wants to ruin her life in such cruel way? she is just a woman who is trying to do her job. well, there are many possibilities on why they choose to do so. this is the weakest point for a lady no matter what is happening. those behind this are really mean. they give no chance and just strike to the max.

i hate this dr. mohd kt. who is his guy again? just some useless i-just-want-the-politician-name ugly man right? he kept saying its a right thing for her to resign asap. wth?? i think he is just racist. those racist people will ask her to do so. why? because she is a chinese, and she is in pkr. are you jealous? just because she is one of the pkr member who won with the second largest majority? i hate racist people especially politics. previously i was..., no.. i AM mad. i am mad about this feller saying we chinese are foreigners, we do not belong to this country. i guess he failed his history paper. malays are not the founders of this country. we chinese once was one of the ruler of this country. got it? who is this tiny amoeba who got no right to speak with his asshole?

eli got so many supporters who voiced their mind in her blog. i do not understand why must she resign? she did nothing wrong, she need not do anything before the investigation ends. its not any sex video like the previous YB. its some photos of her SLEEPING. just because she got a habit of not wearing a shirt when she sleeps then its disgraceful? its humiliating? its her own choice! the more this people behind these wants you to step down, the more stable you must stand on your post. i do not wish her to resign (not because she did a good job or what-so-ever). its because i feel sorry for her. imagine all these happened so suddenly to you. urgh! i cant believe this country is becoming the worst.

i will not believe if those malays tell me they never do anything wrong before. not one second. just because we are chinese doesnt mean we humiliate ourselves. you people do. those who dont wear tudung? those who wears strapless shirt? those who even went clubbing and drinks? those who RAPE THEIR OWN DAUGHTERS? are these people really that graceful? you cant compare yourself to anyone. everyone got their weakness.

dr mohd kt said people will not accept leaders with moral issues. hello?? is this a moral issue? she is not scandal-ing nor having sex randomly. its some nude photos of her being taken unconsciously. what sort of moral values are you talking about? she does not expect people to see her half naked. who are you to talk about her life? another feller from kubu baru, wkm, said its morally wrong for a single woman to allow a man into her room. how does he knows that she allows him? did he confront that man who put he cctv? who knows? she might just let him into the house but he went into her room without permission. nobody knows except herself, that man and some people who knows the truth.

i miss you

went dear's house for dinner yesterday. then bush came out and kept asking us for food. bark and bark non stop. luckily i was wearing jeans, if not, my thigh is gone. that pig bush is so naughty though puberty is coming. what a puppy.

give me food, you naughty girl.

please??

*trying to grab*

can i?

i was really sad. suddenly thought of cant see baby that much since next week. his U is starting. sigh. never mind. at least he is still in kl and its near. love you baby. i miss you!

this morning when i reached shop i saw this disgusting yet funny looking lizard. unlike other lizards, it does not run away though my colleague was sweeping the floor. i took a picture of it. yes, it looks different.

cant see?

presenting you mr. weird lizard!

i am bored. baby is bringing bush to clinic. hope bush is not screaming for help.

farewell to juan lyn

ok. its about yesterday. baby came to have lunch with me, or you can say he came for his hard drive so have lunch also. we ate kfc, then he remided me of juan lyn's birthday. i was like, oh shoot! i totally forgotten its monday. i left shop at 6.30pm and reached shu jiun's house at jalan kuching at 7.30pm. its super jam. baby cant even speed. luckily we were not the only ones who is late. we started eating and talking and eat again. got mee hoon, indian kuey teow (something like that i guess), squid, bones-with-meat (i dont know what thats called in english. i FAILED engish test. XD), sushi, kuihs, fish balls, mash potatos, nuggets, muffins, cupcakes and strawberries with chocolate. we cant finish. left quite a lot.

we chatted and left at 10.30pm. long day. i was super full. i kept eating the mash potatos and sushi as they were superb delicious. i hate my stomach because i cant finish the food. yes. i AM greedy!

there are more as some has not arrived yet.

juan lyn is the photographer.

today? another boring day. i played facebook for so long. pet society, golf, who has the biggest brain, word challenge, geo and bowling. the stupid computer is super slow. i nearly slept while waiting for it to work. *frown*

i am going to baby's house for dinner later. yay!

valentine 09

well, its our fourth valentine already. time passes really quick. dont you think so? for me everyday is valentine. XD today got nothing different except we exchanged presents.

i woke up at 8.30am, get myself done, for about an hour. what i did that took me so long? =.= my mum sarcastically said "you didnt wake up that early and do yourself for so long when its to work" in front of baby tuck. iysh! i gave him a very simple present (i wanted him to feel disappointed). we went tsim tung near my house for breakfast. we waited so long for the food to come. he saw them giving the food to the other group of girls, which is their friends, first. i asked him,"saw that waitress? she kept starring at couples that came in but when its a family, she smiled at them". he is not surprised. maybe she is just jealous. not going there another time. bad service.

my cute doink!

next destination is midvalley. we came here for our first valentine. :p the queue for tickets is SUPER LONG! we were shocked. luckily we need not wait too long. to our suprise, when we were ready to be disappointed with the no-more-seats-left movie, there was two seats left, side by side, third row from the back! the very last two seats! a very strategic place. lucky? or coincidence? XD

looking for a star. this movie shows three love stories. really suitable for a day like this. haha.. andy lau is a billionaire while shu qi is a club dancer+dealer. i dropped my tears few times already. but andy lau with shu qi as a couple? hmm.... kind of weird.

after the movie, we headed to midah tesco. we bought food for our candle light dinner. and yes!! baby is cooking a candle light dinner for me! woohoo!!! alright. his original plan is bringing me to victoria station. he made a reservation two days before. this is the very first time someone made a reservation for me. as in dating, not with family or something. but he cancelled it. i still feel happy because he gave me a better surprise!

i am waiting impatiently. i did not do anything but wait.

first time he cook western food for anyone.

too dark. but romantic. hehe... love you darling!

muakzz!!

champagne. my first ever champagne.

it burst open, scaring me off the ground, left half bottle only. haha..

main course. sirloin steak, rib eye steak, egg, hot dogs.

a toast to us!

drink drink drink!

i know, its a wain glass. haha...

thanks for everything!

he is good at drinking.

i gave him his main present before we started eating. hehe.. he said he expected something as i told him i bought his present earlier. stupid me. after finishing i felt hot and headache is attacking me. i ran to his bed and slept. after one hour i woke up and i feel much better but my stomach is not feeling well. baby, i will be fine. when he was driving home i slept in car. i cant sit too long nor stand long. he stayed for a while, accompanying me and left after 12am.

oh ya, my present. i love them, dear. thanks a lot!!

actually i longed for it the first time saw it. he knew i like baby instead of adults one.

thanks sweetheart.

::dont have to worry ok? i will be fine after sleeping. i love you dear. i am missing you right after you left me. dreaming of you. happy valentines, people!!::