driving drives me crazy

its been so long since i drove. the whole holiday i've been taking lrt out and baby sent me home. even going out with family my bro would be the driver. XD

today i drove to uni and my wildness on road came back. i thought after some time of not touching the steering and hitting the pedal i will definitely change my way of driving into a sweeter way. but it did not turn out that way. i remain the same.

i read someone's post about accidents on roads and stuffs like that the other day. it make me feel that i need to stop being such crazy driver. however, whenever i'm on the road facing some useless drivers who drives me crazy; especially those who dont follow the rules (not signalling); i'll turn ugly. =(

forget about trying to scare me on how dangerous it can be. unless u're in the car, maybe i will try to drive nicer. ;DDDDD

well, today we had an experiment on animal management again. this experiment freaks me out so badly. we had to inject the mice and rat with some drugs. at first i did not feel that bad because i let my other groupmates to perform the injection while i walked away. i didnt even want to watch. ><

suddenly, the last bench behind shouted and the mice was dead! really dead!! it got overdosed and it died! T.T omg....... i didnt really expect to see a mouse die for today's experiment. T.T

after that, one by one each group's mouse started to die!! i was like, "really died? really a?". i didnt want to believe. i hope that its not true. but the eyes went black and the body was stiff (according to my friends). =( i was so sad. why the hell they ask us to perform such experiments? each and every mice did not survive for the IM injections. some IP injected mice were still breathing but did not wake up after more than one hour and a half.

one of the group's mouse was too afraid and anxious that it got its head stucked in one of the hole on the restrainer! T.T i was like, WTF??? how did it ended up in that position??? they tried to help the mouse to get the head out but it really got stucked there. they tried to faint it using chloroform but it did not faint long enough for my friends to help him out. in the end, i think it suffocated or i-dont-know-what-reason, it died. T.T i was sitting on the other bench, looking at them dealing with the mouse. my tears cant stop flowing. ='( it looks so pitiful and the head went purplish in colour. T.T  i felt freaking sad that my heart pumped so hard. in the end pilip somehow pulled it hard out but its eye got popped out. !!!!!!!!!! omg!!!!!!!!!!!

my day went off just like that. i know there must be sacrifices for experiments and i agree with that. but to those who brutally treated the animals, i hate you. you can perform experiments on animals but treat them nicely. dont make them suffer. there was one person who made me super pissed off. he did injected wrongly on the tail of the rat and cause bleeding. my other friend went to inject again and he kept complaining that she did wrongly. what is wrong with you? you dont even know where it is and you even traumatized the rat. how can you complain further?? fuk la..

and, he told me that animals are to be sacrificed for our own good. @.@ wth??? how can you say such words? they do not have the responsibility to sacrifice themselves. i felt like slapping him when he even showed me the "lan si" face. ==

no wonder he somehow left the group. we did not owe you anything but you owe us an apology. dont show us the fuking face when you see us anymore. i wanted to ask you to join us for lunch the other day but when you showed us the i-hate-you-guys-cuz-u-all-should-be-the-one-persuading-me look. puhleezzzz... *ignore*

i think i need to stop about him. i hate thinking about him. zzzzzzz


i miss you darling!