if i die tonight

if i die tonight
i wonder where i'll be tonight

nobody cries please push away the sorrows

cause i aint

the best of men

the best of friend

the best of mom and daddy's last daughter

if i die tonight

would i be forgiven

by all the people

i've slack when i was living

those whom i have hurt their hearts

took advantage of and even lied to

hug you one last time for forgiveness

yes i would like to

if i die tonight

would you feel the loss?

tomorrow, would you dial my number by accident?

then suddenly... pause?

if i die tonight

would mom get my cell phone

message everyone form A to Z

tell them this aint her beloved daughter

she passed away last night

and pray she rest in peace

if i die tonight

would you think of my room

when you see blood

wanted to clean it up this morning

but then i never know cos'....

fade with time

yeah. another day is just going to pass. it is sad as i am still mourning (my papers) and there are 3 more papers waiting me to bang my head at.

today we had our paper when the SPM-ians finished their last EST paper by 3.15p.m and you know what next? they SCREAMED along the way pass our block! WTH... i was cracking my head, trying so hard to solve the question and they just scream their lungs out in front of us (i mean outside). out of nowhere there were firecrackers! my gosh.. cant they just wait for us and together we celebrate?? i know it is kind of M.I but i DON'T care!! they irritates me. oh... i just wish my day will be here soon.

my dad will be back tomorrow! never seen him for so long. miss him much. feels bad when he got sick in the middle of his work and we could not do anything besides talking to him on the line.

:: tell you something embarrassing. i left my phone in my desk. yeah. smart eh.. i realised about it at LRT station and if i was to turn back to get it, i am wasting my time and energy. the examiners locked it until the next exam which is on the monday!! i was like i miss my phone......!!!!! i know i am too smart to do such stupid thing. sigh. i guess i'll just wait until the next monday. ::

~randomly

i got nothing to do (i do which is study which i do not want to face) so i went online and i recall back a song that i love since i was a kid. yeah, the song is really old but not as old as Teresa Tang's. it is M2M's "don't say you love me". it is a nice song and i love the lyrics.

you are not the only one, i was shocked too.

Got introduced to you by a friend,
You were cute and all that,
Baby you set the trend,
Yes you did, oh;

The next thing I know,
We're down at the cinema,
We're sittin' there,
You start kissing me,
What's that about?

You're movin' too fast,
I don't understand you,
I'm not ready yet,
Baby I can't pretend,
No, I can't,
The best I can do,
Is tell you to talk to me,
It's possible, eventual,
Love will find a way,
(Love will find a way)

Don't say you love me,
You don't even know me,
If you really want me,
Then give me some time,
Don't go there baby,
Not before I'm ready,
Don't say your heart's in a hurry,
It's not like we're gonna get married,
Give me, give me some time;

Here's how I play,
Here's where you stand,
Here's what to prove,
To get any further than
where it's been,
I'll make it clear,
Not gonna tell you twice,
Take it slow,
You keep pushing me,
You're pushing me away,
(Pushing me away)

Don't say you love me,
You don't even know me,
If you really want me,
Then give me some time,
Don't go there baby,
Not before I'm ready,
Don't say your heart's in a hurry,
It's not like we're gonna get married,
Give me, give me some time;

(Oh, oh, oh)
Na, na, na-na,
na, na na
Na, na, na-na,
na, na na
(Oh, oh, oh)
Na, na, na-na,
na, na na
Na, na, na-na,
na, na na
Don't say you love me,
You don't even know me,
baby,
(Baby, don't say you love me)
Don't say you love me,
You don't even know me,
(Hey, baby)
If you really want me,
Then give me some time,
(Give me some time)

Don't say you love me,
You don't even know me,
If you really want me,
Then give me some time,
Don't go there baby,
Not before I'm ready,
Don't say your heart's in a hurry,
It's not like we're gonna get married,
Give me, give me some time....

:: i used quite some time to figure out how to download a video. yeah i know i am an idiot in this field. just laugh your lungs out. but i still get to post right? =P ::

shopping!

finally... wee~ my mum woke us up at 9a.m asking us to go midvalley with her. i rejected her at first because i hardly get any sleep and i am tired but after being tempted by her, i went! when we reached there it is not difficult to get a parking as we were early.
we walked around and finally we reached Nichii. i love Nichii but since i am not those i-buy-anything-i-want-as-i-got-no-money-problem people, so i hardly buy clothes from there. but i saw this spagetti-strap shirt (i think) and i tried it on. i like it and the price is not expensive thou. woohoo! i bought it of course.

don't laugh. i know i look fat.

we went Jusco to have our lunch (brunch i should say) and we continue walking. we went back and there was a super jam at the Dewan Bahasa. pity my mum as me and my sis slept and she had to stand to boredness alone.

well, i am still dreaming that i finished my exam and i am walking around the mall. how nice. XD

during high school

i miss my days in high school. i received a message from nan hong asking me to confirm whether i can join them (ivy, anna, kah yan, melanie, woan shin, yiwen and herself) to langkawi. i really want to go because it might be the last gathering before melanie flies to Australia. i miss them a lot. my mum said i went there already so why should i go another time. sigh. i asked my mum and this is what she answered:
mum: aiya. doe wan la. you went there already still wanna go?
me: but...
mum: i said no..
me: then what if they change destination? can i go?
mum: aiyah i dont know. you like la..
but i do not think that they will change just because of me. they planned everything and they just need to confirm the bookings. i guess i just got no fate to go on trips with them. i missed going genting with them after our SPM also.
our memories that will never fade away...

anna's birthday at station one~

chiu yen's birthday at vinz corner

on mei yee's birthday



after choral speaking for pn.wong retirement
p/s: we were forced to clip our hair up

merdeka: after our sketch (we are proud of ourselves)

we used to love taking sticker pictures

Hari Keusahawanan



deepavali at priya's house

pretenders

soaked after having fun with cakes and water

its our zhi mui anniversary

we were pretending that we finished our SPM

graduated from high school!

redbox after graduation

there are more thou but could not upload all. lots of experience with them. those days were happy although there were times when we had conflicts. but it made us grow. all of us changes no matter physically or in the sense of attitude but we still love each other.

what a week

my first and second paper started on the 18th of November. previous days i had no enough sleep, i could not sleep well. my mum told me it is because i am worrying about my exam. maybe. i think too much of it. my own fault. if i were to study constantly since last year (or maybe early this year) then i will not be worrying that much. too late to feel regret and no time to think of regret.
due to lack of sleep, my body feels tired all the time and i could not eat well. sigh. i really need an enough rest after the exam.

today is my last paper for the week which is biology. guess what? the paper is totally not what we expected. not only me but my friends also complained that what we aimed (even teachers) were not there. all unpopular question came out. i did studied thou but i could not remember! that is the worst part of all. if the questions were out of my i-had-already-studied range then i might feel much better than now.

i got no appetite after going through a tough week. i slept so long til i missed my show at 7p.m.
how i wish it will be over right away right at this time.